The First Bit of My Christian Life Story

     This is my first post where I talk about religion, specifically Christianity. If you aren't religious I encourage you to continue reading because I believe everyone has the chance to be saved by our Lord and Savior. Today I will be talking about my journey as a Christian.

    I was a born and raised Christian. Both of my parents believe in God, and when I was younger we went to church every Sunday. I remember once when I was about 8 years old I was having doubts about God. I was confused thinking "how can I believe something that isn't physically here? How can I believe the stories of the Bible? How do I know that God exists?" With all these doubts in my mind that were clearly put there by the devil himself, I came to the conclusion that I didn't believe in Him any longer. With this new decision, I took a teal Crayola marker and a white envelope and wrote to my parents "I don't think I believe in God and Jesus anymore." I went to their room and handed them the note and went back to my room because I was scared of what they were going to say. After they read it they called me back in to talk to them. Now I don't remember the exact conversation that we had but I do remember that they convinced me that we just have to believe in Him even if we can't see Him. With this conversation I was satisfied and I believe once again. My dad told me to rip the note up and put the pieces in the shredder. So I did what I was told. Now keep this in mind, I ripped this note up randomly, I didn't do it nicely or precisely. When I was about to shred another piece my dad stopped me. He said, "don't shred this one." I replied with "why?" Then he told me to look at the piece in my hand and read it. It read "believe in God." Now there were no other words around this it clearly states "believe in God." My original note said, "I don't think I believe in God and Jesus anymore." My parents told me to keep this in a safe place and I did, and to this day I still have this piece of paper to help me remember that I have to believe in God.

    Now I would be lying if I said everything was smooth sailing from then on. It wasn't. For the past few years, I have been constantly struggling with my faith. I keep thinking the same thing about what if God isn't real? Am I wasting my time? What if heaven isn't real, and when I die it's just darkness? These thoughts come up ALL THE FREAKING TIME and I hate it. That everyone is satan trying to turn against God. He has done it to so many others and he won't stop. Because of this, I have been trying to pray every day and do some type of activity to spend time with God every day to fight those negative thoughts and have God's word take over. I will always believe in God and I have been working on spreading His word on all of my social media platforms so others can be exposed to His goodness. I will be posting more Christian content on my blog because this is one place where I can spread God's good news. If you ever need anything from me, a prayer, a friend, advice, anything I will always be here, and remember, you can ALWAYS talk to God, He listens.

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